Miru

Hate It All

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Haiz, life is falling apart

Just got the text, that person wants to break off the friendship. I have no clue why, or what is it I did wrong.

Why?
Was I annoying?
What, a malay?
I'll leave you alone, I will, just talk to me. I need you. You're one of my friends that understand me most. I can't handle life without you. I am sorry.

I am sorry for not being the person that will leave you and your issues alone. When the rest of them know what's going on. I feel misplaced, for why you would tell friends, when you couldn't tell me. I don't understand why.

Yes, you can be selfish. You can have her for all you want. But telling other people, not including me? And ending up the whole issue with "I don't trust you" really did break my heart apart. I am waiting for your apology. If you are unhappy with who I am, tell me, shout it right into my face, so that at least I get your respect. It is not fair, it really isn't. Haiz, please, don't do this to me. You are important.

I couldn't stop crying and sobbing on my bed when you send me that text.

Yea, I know, that's something not manly to say. But at least bold enough to say it. I can't stand the fact that you would do this to me. Please, I am sorry. But I too need your apology.

Until then...

I Regret

Friday, October 30, 2009

MOTHER FPISSED

LIFE SUCKS

You smart la, very smart, go to 2D, I more stupid la.
I'm fuckng cunning, you can't trust me. I'm freaking fugly stupid bitch wannabe.
I am sinful, pathetic, useless boy who does nothing to criticise you all the time.

You happy right. You are so perfect, I wonder why I trust you to be my best friend. Hmm, and you didnt. Yarr, I thought I knew you, guess I was wrong. You're super perfect la, everyone loves you. Haiz, really suck ah. All those msgs you give me, what deepshit, am I suppose to trust that all that was true. Haiz, ya. You feel much better right when you know I'm a dirty little painintheass malay boy.

Just read Sarah's blog, I agree with her. Not sure too whether right decision to get into this school. Met some wonderful people too that changed me.

Li Jun and I getting along.
Yeah, we're going out, not going steady, get your facts right. Got problem?
Thursday went to buy eoy gifts.
Friday dance.

Bye

His Confessions

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Today ah? Did nothing.
During class, everyone wanted to know who I liked. Lol
Yeah, everyone saw my facebook status, and i got like 46 comments/feedback on my wall now.
Many people know already, I seriously like this girl. I've wasted almost 10 months not asking this girl out, what a friggin' waste. Haiz, disappointed.

News from Miss Chin: Half the class only made it to 2 Devotion, 2010's most academically smartest class. Yeah, the top 42 of cohort going to 2D next year, the rest of us would be dispersed to the rest of the express classes. But the majority of the dispersal would be going to 2F.

I confirm die die go to 2F, if not, I'll rather quit school and live in the dump, seriously.

Dance

Today dance session, we wasted like 1.5 hours disccussing where to practice dance. There were 3 factors holding us back.

Venue - There is 'O' Level Examination going on, so the school will be so called out of bounds. And we need somewhere spacey, so houses are out of the option.
CD Player - My song, as you can hear right now, is only burnt on a disc because my phone spoil, so the only way is to bring a CD Player with speakers
Power point - We need a power point to power the CD Player, lol

But the biggest reason why we spent so much time is the Heidi, Sarah and Mook went out to eat lunch at Junction8 and um Causewaypoint.

In that long period of time, Erick, Carin and I stayed in school canteen talk about life, love and problems.

Woah, gosh, another emotional time for me. I got so engaged in the conversation that I almost cried. We were first talking about who I like, then about family, and when I started to touch on my eldest brother's story, I couldn't resist..

I just blurted everything out, I was just so angry. That was the very first time I talked about my brother with friends. I never opened up regarding to my family issues... but seriously... I wanted to just shout and just take that frustration I have with my brother.

While that very moment I wanted to cry, Erick hurled his hand out, his signature move la. And I was like what the hell, Amirul, don't cry, please, public HAHA Yeah, hold the tears ah. I don wanna go deeper on the story, it hurts. If you wanan know, find out your friggin' self. lol

So at last, made decision to go Mook's house. At Seng Kang there.
Eh, got 3 dogs leh, so cool. They don't bite, neither lick heh.
So yeah, it was the most slackiest session ever. Almsot did nothing cause like so many things to talk about.

Go back home with Erick and Carin, talk about this issue, omg, so....eee yer. Heh.

CHIAO. SEVEN ALREADY LIAO!!! HAHAH
gotta log out, sob sob

Yellow, Black and All Things Mushy

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Yesterday night, text crap with that Faris. It was like so funny. Anyway, dancers reading this, please spread the word, there will be dance sessions during the holidays

Liya's Wedding

Oooo yeahhhh A'huh... a'huh. My cousin Liya is officialy maried yaw. Okay, it may not have been the best rewang - a term where people get together to help out an event such as a wedding, but it was fun arh cause there was strong bonding going on with my cousins! Omg, every single picture would be uploaded by tomorrow, not a promise heh.

Part 1
So yesterday, dance session got cancelled cause of attendance. Gosh. Whatever.

Came back home and my mom was like, hurry up change if you wanna follow me go rewang. And I was like yar yar. Went to Syed Restaurant to eat my breakfast. Um, Just 3 pieces of prata and Sportswater. Oh, and by the way

NO SMOKING.

LOL... Lame

So reach there, woah, everything set-up already.

I cameraman, seriously speaking. Had to take photographs for my cousin, personally, for 3 hours, taking shots of what was going on.

The most tiring was not the 3 hours, but it was the 5 minutes where I had to hold the camera still to record a video of the "signing the document" session HAHA

Here you can see me taking memorable pictures for my dear Liya.

Took pictures of the gifts and whatever.

Relatives too. Um, it was kinda stupid cause there were like so many many photographers there, no joke. And it was hard cause it was seriously like some kind of celebrity paparazzi.

And here, took photos of everyone else.

Um, the woman in the pink thingy is Liya, yeah, it is actually a candid shot, seriously.

She's really good at smiling, she does it all the time, like without cramping, that is super cool.

Haha, yeah, so um, the girls in blue are one of my favourite cousins on Earth. Fun to be with, can joke around, not sensitive, and yeah, had fun.

So on your left, he is my top-rated cousin; Syafiezal. Haha, yeah, he looks soo those mat-rep hooligans, although he is HAHA

But he's kind to me ah.

Please, get to know him before judging, he speaks so softly LOL

Yeah, the trio there are my veryvery close cousins I can't let go. At night the 3 of us were like singing those emotional malay songs. We had so much fun, seriously, we sang till like 12 am? Like some kind of drunk asses

Last but not least, here we have Aniszah,

my cousin who treats me somewhat like how Farah does.

Haha! I love youuu anis. Yeah, she takes care of me uh. Um, she's my assistant camerawoman when I'm really occupied.

She's like super cheeky, haha, whateverrr
Part 2 tomorrow, where pictures arrive uh (:

THE END MAN!

Up, Down, Left, Right

Friday, October 23, 2009

So, yesterday, my bro just received his salary.
And like woah, he is so generous. He gave me a hundred dollars, see! Didn't like expect that.

PHS Amazing Race

Anyway, today we had our Amazing Race event at school. He was like boring at first. We had to go stations such as theee... Word Frenzy, Hop-Jump-Hop, but my favourite is like the Through the Maze.

The objective of the game is that my group was blindfolded with our own ties. Haha, awkward much. Carin instructed as by like saying 1: Left, 2: Right and bla bla bla. We had to go through the stupid maze. It was soo cool tho, cause there were like obstacles like this brushing feeling on the leg and "rain". Its like guarantee they used the broom and like water to splash on us.

It was a super uper great experience. Oh yea, members were myself, Erick, Carin, Shana and Jolene. Hehe!

Dance

Dance, wow, today best day. Guess who just joined the family. Better still, its a guy!

GOD BLESS ME! HAHA! I LOVE YOUUU LORD!

mwuahahahaha.... lame
Azra, yeah, that Secondary 2 Devotion, 16yr old philipino guy from Drama Club. Yep. He was like so confident he could do well in dance. And yea, he proved it alright! Well, we learnt new steps that were frigging awesome, they were like wushu, I guess?

It was funny cause Azra is so stiff. But he could like do body wave and stuff, cool huh.
So yea, after dance, Mandi gave the new version of the song by D-JAN himself. This custom made song was suppose to cost us roughly $600, but because of some certain special issue, heh, we were able to get it free!

BOO YA

Stayed back and talk crap with Azra and my fellow team mates. Got back home safe and sound.
So now mommy is scolding me go bath cause its gonna be seven soon.

TATA! I'm stinking, but aint no worry, I'm wearing deoderant LOL

Life is full of surprises,
so why not wait for it
than trying to search for one.

At the end of the day,
what surprises you is far way better
than what you expect.
(:

Im Back

Thursday, October 22, 2009

been long. i know.
exams? nothing to say

life, not bad, could have been better, but whatever -.-
small things I remembered:

I studied with Shanmugam for Maths, it was worth it. He has now titled me as God of Shit
Found out that Erick was so called saliva-conscious, but I'm an exception
Carin broke up with that person of hers
I keep waking up at exactly 12am for no reason
Shafiq dyed his hair brown

highlights so far:

Sexual Education

It was like Tuesday. I can guarantee in Reuben's head, he was like "So cool! I can't wait". Well, talked about the harmful effects of pornography online. Yea, it so was not cool. Miss Chin was like "It is very bad too watch too much porn". And Ang Guan was like "..that means can watch a little bit of porn la". Holy crap, I cracked up so much. It was super funny, like no idea why. Okay, so remember people, watching porn is very very sinful.... you know... must learn from me, I good example (HAHAHAHAAHAHA! XD).

CCA OPEN HOUSE 2010

Sarah and I will be and are choreographing a new dance together with Erick, Mook, Heidi, Carin and Mandi. We will perform next year during the CCA Open House to promote dancing. Desperately need boys, or at least, one with male chromosomes LOL. okay, so the song you're hearing now, is the OUR VERY OWN TEMPORARY MASH-UP of the song that we would be using for the dance. A remix is made with the help of Mandi's DJ teacher to better "pump up the flavour", or like whatever that's suppose to mean.

We so far have covered up at least an eight entrance, 4.5 eights individual and 7 eights sync. All of us so far are at least suffering from lots of aches, needle-like pain and blue-blacks. Even Sarah had to dump school cause she was in real pain from doing all the hip-hop.

Currently, the Zhang Lao Shi, also known as Zhang Monster, seriously -.- LOL lame, is choreographing like 4 dance items for next year's school concert. I'm starting to get really giddy and tired these days from all the dancing. Thanks to Erick to entertain me from my long-ago-weird-habit-of-staring-into-blank-space, and to Sarah who is helping with the choreography, I still remain strong, charming, and like no ugly eye bags, for now.

So anyway, on Monday, rehearsed at AMK. Passers-by were freaked out with our freaky moves.
Tuesday; rehearsed at WOW Room, after that, Erick and I brought Carin to the boy's washroom. It was so frigging funny. Carin was like unsure about the small little thing that was attached to the wall where we men pee. And she was like, " Do you guys like, sit on this thing and pee? Like, how you guys pee?" You should hear the time when she asked, "Do you guys masturbate?"

HAHAHAHAHA. HOLY CRAP. HILARIOUS.

Okay, wont get into that story.

Wednesday was whatever. Had dance after school.
For the first time, I can push myself so-so much way down on my splits without that Zhang Monster. I was like this close to making full splits, until that Zhang came and pushed me down. As usual, always go back from school with Erick. Carin came in, talk crap in train as usual. People were staring at us, no idea why.

GOLF

Played golf today. Yea, not bad, wasn't bored, at least Erick was there.
Practiced at driving range, then went to the golf course.
So the scores were:

Reuben - Hole in One
Shanmugam - Eagle
Erick - Eagle
Dave - Eagle
Amirul - Birdie
Joseph - Bogey

I do not want to touch onto the story where Steph got beaten up by Jeremy.

Done with my stories.

You are willing to wait for me,
but I have to be selfish, so please,
keep waiting till everything is over.

love, miru..

GlamourUs GotongRoyong 2009

Sunday, October 4, 2009

ALL PICTURES HAVE BEEN UPLOADED TO FACEBOOK

Amirul Adfyez
in GotongRoyong albulm

hahas. you all get it???
when i have time, i will create slideshow and put it up here (: iight?
so, it all started with me. getting ready in the morning. we promised at like 11.30. so now its 11. waited elina for 30 freaking minutes, and yes, the rest were waiting for us. hahahahas. they kept calling us, we kept telling them we superstars, put the red carpet :D reach at 7-11 np, we kept asking them where carpet, then we saw farah with red kurong.

HAHAHA. FUNNY SIA. elina was like, THERE! OUR RED CARPET! XD

so we discuss where to go. kept calling mdm adilah. no one pick up. so go to hayats. his father pick up. reach there, eat pizza.

THEN WENT TO OUR SECRET CAMWHORE AREA

hehe. yea, took lots of cool high quality photos. very nice ah, even with my phone camera. not bad (:

I TOOK OF MY SHIRT IN FRONT OF THE GIRLS

HAHAAH. yar, i know, ee yer. but im like super hawt sia. you know what i mean la huh ;D
go to farahs house, then watch this stupid guy, fall off a pillar then hit concrete floor. his head likee scrambled egg, but he still breathing. then to my house, eat mee goreng, then to elinas.

go to khairuls. since i miss him so much die die, i bought him ferero roche. hahas. went his house, eat ayam panggang. then home sweet home.

BYEBYE :D huhu!

Life is Great?

Friday, October 2, 2009

Wednesday:

Went jogging 5km with brother 0.o Omg, freaking tired man, panting panting panting. He was like, "DONT STOP JOGGING"

Thursday:

Sick in the morning. went to school, chapel did malay work. English did lit, wierd. so its llike science, and i failed my science test... haiz.... really awful marks. you know, for the first time, I cried during co-curiculum that is related to academics -.- erick came, he was like dont cry, its gonna be okay. and shanmugam was like, dont cry leh. was really sick the whole day, my chest freaking pain, cant breathe, cough alot, sneeze sneeze. scared my asthma came back.

night time, my conditions freaking worsened. seriously having really3 hard time to breathe.

WHOLE NIGHT COULDN'T SLEEP. mom and bro kept entertaining me, gosh, my brother is so kind to me, lol, seriously. he was like, come here, i massage you (: hehe.

Today:

morning, very high temperatures. no sleep.

38.5C.

really giddy man. had a hard time going school, went with umi (: texted mrs goh, say im like freaking sick and inform my teacher. went there, reach at general office. saw tze ming, he came to me and was like, are you okay (: hahas! put his hand over my forehead, so sweet la he. discuss with him where miss chin.

so, i was isolated, was at second level corridor there. English paper was easy la. after that, as usual, went home with erick, shana, jacy and clarette. jolene suppose to follow, dunno why she didnt go home. umi waited for me. went home together with friends and mom XD

played bubbles in train :D talk crap. went see doctor. go home. making cheesecake. slept. woke up, then i saw Gearl-Gurl in plastic bag XD

The Perceiver

His Chronicals

Exodus

Wormhole